How I wished the music concert had not come and had not yet passed so swiftly. When it comes, it means that the day I'm going give up my violin classes is approaching. When it passes, it means that I'm left with very little time for practices. Yet, the exam is coming soon. I really have no idea how am I going to practise once my school starts.
Opting a better choice comes with sacrifices. For now that I've already decided to go to Kolej Matrikulasi Kelantan to further Pre-U studies, it's confirmed that I'm going to leave home very soon. I will only come back when there's semester break, and that will be three months once. I guess it's time for me to experience independence. Yeah, INDEPENDENCE BUT NOT FREEDOM. I will still be locked up for weekdays and I guess Saturdays and Sundays too.
Speaking about violin and I don't know how I can really survive from the thirst of playing a music instrument. This may seem a little exaggerating but I'm not willing to be part with my violin or piano. There're my best companions apart from my friends and families. Well, sacrifices must be made. I can't deny that I'm lucky enough to be selected to study in matriks, there's no room left for me to complain. I appreciate the chance given and i accepted the offer. I won't regret sooner or later although I have to give goodbye waves to my friends, family members and my music classes, because I've made myself a vow: I will come back and continue my music route.
Thursday, May 8, 2014
Sunday, April 27, 2014
Life after SPM
That's how life is after finishing up SPM and before you engage into studies again. LIFELESS will be the best description of it afterall. I appreciated time while I was still studying in highschool and I really cherished and used it as wise as possible because time had never been tantamount to me. As for now i'm currently living out of the books, it makes me feel that time is too much and it passes too slowly for me to regain my liveliness again. How I wish time could pass a little faster as I can't wait to enter college, matriculation or university!
Well, this long break doesn't have its all disadvantages. It still helps to wriggle out of stress after years of studying in highschool. That's the period dedicated to us to temporarily wave our hands to tension in studies, and the saddest thing was to say goodbyes to our honourable teachers and beloved friends who had been playing great roles as our companions in school. That's the time for us to unwind and engage ourselves into things that we weren't experimenting before this too.
As to not getting rot staying at home for 24 hours, I decided to start a job in a kindercare in the vicinity. It was an extremely great experience overall, patience while treating kids with love and care was part of the test. Though that, I didn't have a problem with this. My schoolmate always praised that I'm kindhearted and I was named "ANGEL". I'm honoured to have this precious name, despite that I doubt my kindness could reach this extent to be granted as "angel". I suppose this comes from what they saw thoughout the five years in highschool. They even said that I had never pulled a long face even though I came across things and people that I loathed. I know that's a bit of exaggerating, but that's what I was told.
It left me three more weeks to be in the kin of the big big family in the kindercare. I have spent five months getting along with my colleagues and my adorable kids, and now I'm loath to leave them. It has been my fourth home after my first home (which is my real home), my second home (my schools) and my third home (Martin tuition centre). I always have a hard feeling thinking of leaving the people whom I spent plenty of time with, whom I have shared my love with. It was heartbreaking to seperate with them. SOB SOB SOB...
There're still tonnes of things to accomplish before I start studying in the end of May. First, on the 4th May, I need to attend a performance in my violin teacher's music centre- Music Hub Studio. I would be performing four pieces- one for piano and three for violin. The piano performance is going to be a big one. I would be playing together with my teacher, Emily Goh as it's a duet piece. I was troubled when I started practising this piece after a few hardly-touch-piano years. She chose such challenging piece for me and I'm proud that I didn't give up eventually. I didn't forget how to play piano afterall. Still, I made it a success. Well, I couldn't deny that Teacher Emily's talented in music, she knows both piano and violin. She achieved diploma level for both instruments, how great is that!! She must have invested a lot in music and she has the utmost love and passion for music. Next would be my driving test. I'm nervous to be frank. I know that confidence is the most essential element that I should have on that day itself but I can't convince myself to be confident yet. I fear that I would fail in any section. I will still hope and pray for the best for myself. After that, I would need to make a list of the things that I need to bring to my college and start searching them in the shops. That would be the most arduous one as I have never leave home for studies. It also meant that there are many things that I would need to bring alonh as I'm going to stay in the hostel for months before i come back for holiday. I hate packing, it always brings troubles to me.
HUH, that's all for my first post. I opened up this blog years ago but have always been lazy to write. Here you go, enjoy reading it!
Well, this long break doesn't have its all disadvantages. It still helps to wriggle out of stress after years of studying in highschool. That's the period dedicated to us to temporarily wave our hands to tension in studies, and the saddest thing was to say goodbyes to our honourable teachers and beloved friends who had been playing great roles as our companions in school. That's the time for us to unwind and engage ourselves into things that we weren't experimenting before this too.
As to not getting rot staying at home for 24 hours, I decided to start a job in a kindercare in the vicinity. It was an extremely great experience overall, patience while treating kids with love and care was part of the test. Though that, I didn't have a problem with this. My schoolmate always praised that I'm kindhearted and I was named "ANGEL". I'm honoured to have this precious name, despite that I doubt my kindness could reach this extent to be granted as "angel". I suppose this comes from what they saw thoughout the five years in highschool. They even said that I had never pulled a long face even though I came across things and people that I loathed. I know that's a bit of exaggerating, but that's what I was told.
It left me three more weeks to be in the kin of the big big family in the kindercare. I have spent five months getting along with my colleagues and my adorable kids, and now I'm loath to leave them. It has been my fourth home after my first home (which is my real home), my second home (my schools) and my third home (Martin tuition centre). I always have a hard feeling thinking of leaving the people whom I spent plenty of time with, whom I have shared my love with. It was heartbreaking to seperate with them. SOB SOB SOB...
There're still tonnes of things to accomplish before I start studying in the end of May. First, on the 4th May, I need to attend a performance in my violin teacher's music centre- Music Hub Studio. I would be performing four pieces- one for piano and three for violin. The piano performance is going to be a big one. I would be playing together with my teacher, Emily Goh as it's a duet piece. I was troubled when I started practising this piece after a few hardly-touch-piano years. She chose such challenging piece for me and I'm proud that I didn't give up eventually. I didn't forget how to play piano afterall. Still, I made it a success. Well, I couldn't deny that Teacher Emily's talented in music, she knows both piano and violin. She achieved diploma level for both instruments, how great is that!! She must have invested a lot in music and she has the utmost love and passion for music. Next would be my driving test. I'm nervous to be frank. I know that confidence is the most essential element that I should have on that day itself but I can't convince myself to be confident yet. I fear that I would fail in any section. I will still hope and pray for the best for myself. After that, I would need to make a list of the things that I need to bring to my college and start searching them in the shops. That would be the most arduous one as I have never leave home for studies. It also meant that there are many things that I would need to bring alonh as I'm going to stay in the hostel for months before i come back for holiday. I hate packing, it always brings troubles to me.
HUH, that's all for my first post. I opened up this blog years ago but have always been lazy to write. Here you go, enjoy reading it!
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